Monday, December 6, 2010

My PsyCho MidTerm

So we had a pop quiz Mid Term in my Psych class last week.  I love my Psych teacher he can talk just as fast as me.  He is very articulate.  And he loves ta curse.  He even got in trouble by the faculty because a student recorded his first lecture and presented her recording to her parents.  HOW LAME!?!  He is a man of science but I won't hold that against him.  He’s also a man of reason.  His father is an Astro Physicist and his mother is something special.  Anyways although he has a brilliant brain and works with people at MIT and other prestigious colleges I still stump him in class and make him think.  I love it.

Well here is what I wrote for my MIDterm 4 pages in 30 minutes.  About the chapters I liked, why I remembered them, and how I apply them to my everyday life:

My first favorite chapter in the class was on consciousness.  The reason being because it divides into the human SOUL/Psyche.  There are three layers; the ego, ID, and super ego. This phenomenon is so misunderstood and improvable.  I learned that with in the human conscious that we develop our moral/ethics.  We build who we are and want to become weather good or evil/ right or wrong.  We develop the schema s that will lead us through our lives.

I remember this because I’m enthralled with it.  I read the material and developed a better understanding of myself and others.  It’s a study of the human mind and SOUL that can neither be proven or discredited.
It impacted my daily life by helping me learn to take a step back and realized everybody is different for ill or good. It taught me not to judge on a random occurrence.  I learned to dissect peoples actions and made me wonder; Why they are the way they are? & Why they do the things they do?

My second favorite chapter was on development.  I never truly understood why I have become the person I am today until I read this chapter.

When I was born they put me in the ICU, not because I was sickly, but because I wouldn’t eat, I wouldn’t sleep, I wouldn’t cry, all I would do is stare off into space and giggle.  Soon after they found nothing wrong with me and their silly test. They let me go.

  I also grew up like I was raised by a pack of wolves.  I grew up moving all over the country on campgrounds.  My mom and dad shared a tent and me, my lil sis, a lil bro would share a tent.  We would take baths from water jugs in trees, warmed by the sun, or we would bathe in lakes and rivers.

I once had a friend tell me, “You never act homeless.”

That HURT!!!!!!!!@(*O*)@

I told her, “ I was houseless, YES! Homeless, NEVER!!! The home is where the heart is.”

I remembered this chapter on development because it made me remember my childhood.  It made me feel my childhood all over again, the good and the bad.  This chapter made me understand the fragile things in a babys, childs, kids life are special, and to treat these lil things with care and compassion.

Out of the development chapter I learned a lot.  I learned weather you’re a child growing up in the ghettos or a child growing up in suburbia, you are still effected by the struggles of everyday life and the people that influence you.  I learned its better at a younger age to start teaching your kid different languages and read them more colorful imaginative books. (Which I ALREADY knew & would have already done given the chance.) I learned why I have always loved my mother and had once loathed my father.  I learned a lot.

This chapter again impacted my daily life because it taught me more about myself and others.  It showed me how to care and handle an infant’s mind and development.  It gave me a better understanding of life, crystallized or fluid.  We are all just big balls of energy that can neither be crated nor destroyed.

My third favorite chapter, although it’s a lie I love them all equally,   was on perception.  I learned not everyone sees things the same.  Some people just can’t think outside the box. A line will always be a line never a cube, but always a square or rectangle depending on the width of the object drawing it.  The SKYs will never fall, and a maze is just simply a MAZEing.  Peoples perceptions on things are skewed on both ends of the spectrum, and reality is that middle area of Grey. 

The reason I remembered this chapter is because I’m an artist.  I paint,doodle, cook, write, create music, landscape, etc. This chapter made me feel happy for all the things I do, lead a life of mis perception.  I’m a befuddled mess of contradictory elements that are arranged in a splendorous and delectable fashion that’s appealing to all senses, or so I like ta think.  That  is maybe my misperception. ;) But I highly doubt it. I know the TRUTH.

What I learned helped change my daily life by helping create an illusion of who I really am and helped me feel who people/ strangers really are. (Although I've been able to do that ever sense I was born.)  It helped me cut through the smoke and mirrors and see the wizard behind the curtain.  One of my favorite quotes is by Blaze Pascal “The universe is an infinite sphere whose center is everywhere and circumference is nowhere.” But I like saying, “The universe is an infinite sphere whose epicenter is knows ? where and its circumference is everywhere.”

I’m glad we had this kind of MIDterm.  I loved it.

P.S. I know you are a man of science and I didn’t give many scientific examples but that’s my fault not yours.  I just wanted to tell you the best trick the DEVIL ever pulled was making people believe he never existed. And I’m no cheap trick.  CHEAP no Trick YES. Some might go as far as saying I’m one of the biggest MAGICtricks ever, Except for JESUS CHRIST.  He has me beat by a long shot. And the DEVIL he lost all his magic when he challenged GOD. For ALL of THIS I KNOW because (all of GODs spells)"THE GOSPELS" TOLD ME SO. 

I ended up getting a damn good grade on that paper but for my grammatical MISS stylez, and lack of hard scientific data.  But I don’t care.  That’s the problem with science.  They over glorify the use of imagination but still want to keep it confined in a box.  How silly!?!?!  How are you suppose ta find the center of the human soul in a box.  You can’t its everywhere outside that prison of a cube.

AMEN!!!!!!! 

PS. I once wrote two papers for a friend in college, when I was still in HIGHschool.  One was comparing the COLD WAR to the "UPSIDE DOWN BUTTER TOAST WAR" by DR SEUSS , and the other was comparing "LORD OF THE RINGS" ta WORLD WAR II.  He thought I was crazy and I was trying to make him fail.  I GOT HIM an A++ on each paper.  =)


AMEN!!!!!!!

A KinDly MASS FB DeBate WiTh My DarLin MoDEL FrieND BoNNie

Oh I know they'll take my soda pop away, take my guns away, raise taxes on ciggs.. No our country is founded on money not voting.  The rich win the poor loose and the constitutional ideas of our founding fathers are lost in a distorted view of what others want to have implemented not the whole governed body.  To tell you the truth America is almost worst then communism. There’s no democracy. It's dictatorship wrapped in a little sparkling package saying you voted for us to fuck you in the ass.  So take it with a smile. Communism didn't hide its self.  Everyone saw its EVIL coming from a mile away.  

A POLITICAL machine based not on GODs foundation will fail and crumble.

I know all the hoopla Bonnie I really do we hated Bush. We hate Obama. Clinton was cool until he got caught getting his dick sucked and shoving a cigar up Monica’s whoha...But let me tell you America Politics is full of smoke and mirrors and no magic just trick.  We start wars against ourselves.  We train the terrorist we even supply them with guns.  We let drugs get smuggled in and we drug our own communities.  Why? So we can get a sympathy vote and throw more money at the problem.  We give to other countries when we should be fixing our own.  Good PR. 

 Don’t get me wrong it’s good to help out other NATIONs and people that are in need. BUT We as the US forget about them halfway and let them suffer themselves, unless there is something in it for use.  And say,"Well we tried."  You really don't hear much about Haiti on the news  anymore.  The relief in Indonesia over that tsunami?  Yes we do give a lot more relief and aid to countries in need more then other countries do. But why do you think that is?  To throw it in other counties faces when they get on our case. You don't  get it BONNIE.  The money we are giving isn't even the US's money.  CHINA owns are ass and we think our NATIONAL DEBT doesn't matter.  I'll tell you what when the BILL collectors get pissed and want their money back and we can't deliver. Then what!?! AMERICA isn't going to be able to get a nice high priced lawyer to file Bankruptcy and make it all go away. NOPE that's not gonna happen.  Shits gonna roll down hill quick.  And soon we as a NATION are gonna be doomed far beyond our scopes of comprehension. 

  Its not just our government Bonnie its us as a people.  (SIDE STORY:)

When I managed this restaurant and it fell under a NEW ownership.  I had to show them the ropes.  They wouldn't listen to me after they thought they knew everything.  They owned one business that failed , but they still had enough money to buy a new one. "DRUG money" Anyways I let them do their thing and I did my JOB as a kitchen manager.  

So time went by and they weren't making all that much money as they thought.  I told them your making too much food at one time.  Make small amounts more often and you won't have to throw so much out.  Well they didn't want to do that.  That meant more work and more time.  They were LAZY rich TRAILER TRASH.  Sorry to put that label on them but they were.  They started to take product that was going bad and relabel the expiration date and but these little dots on them so anyone that worked there would know. I got on the owners case 

1. Its Illegal 2. Its just bad for business ethically and morally. 

They told me I didn't know anything about business, I was just a cook.  I laughed in their face told them,"I know if you give somebody food poisoning especially a little child, or even worse killed somebody over TOXIC food, and they trace it back to you. Say good bye to your business and everyone that works there. You're TAINTED and every business you own after that is TAINTED as well." 

Nope they continued not caring about anybody but themselves.  Its gets much worse.  They were over making so much marinaded meat and passing what they couldn't sell or was about to go bad off on me I couldn't get rid of it quick enough on the KITCHEN side. I refused to cook bad poultry or beef.  I would store it in the deep freezer before it went completely rancid.  The freezer was getting full of all the extra meat  and they didn't want to throw it out. 

I told them, "All the meat that is still good I can make soups out of.  We can then freeze dry them and give them to soup kitchens.  That way not only are you giving back to the community, its good PR, and you can get a tax write off.  That's better than throwing it all out or serving bad food to the public."  

They were appalled by the idea they were not going to give free food away and they were not going to throw it out.  Well because of that and a few other things I couldn't work there anymore.  I went in the next day and gave them a months notice.  They called me a quitter and said I was fired.  How MATURE !?! I looked both the owners strait in the eyes and told them THANKyou for your kindness your WORDs mean a lot to me glad I can see your TRUE character.  They told me if I was ever to step foot in their establishment again they would call the cops and have me arrested.   Know whats funny after all that. THEY started doing all the things I told them they should do. 

MORAL of the STORY.  Just because your RICH trailer trash, still makes you TRAILER TRASH.

(BACK TA RANT)

Our infrastructure is falling apart.  Rome had better plumbing and road ways.  Money Money Money, the root of most evils, that’s all it is. 

When you have people believing in their hearts what they know is wrong you won all the way and you have them by the balls.

Regan was nice NO still not good enough.  This political conglomerate of a globalized imperial machine that we ourselves built out of pure negligence, Kraft foods, and  beauty products is gonna take more than one man.  It’s gonna take a conscious and mental revolution of a righteous collective mind.  A collective group of derelicts feed up with being put down.  You’ll see I don’t mean to preach.  I don’t mean to cause some stir in the fabric of anyone’s self-content imaginary world, but it is gonna happen, and it won’t be all daisies and peace signs.  I’m not saying a civil war but a global conscious war. No more free love that’s all out the box all we have now is hate and free lust.  It’s gonna get back to the good old days, the all for nothing days, and there’s gonna be blood by the gallons.  And I want to have no part in it.  Pick the better of your evils that’s fine but I want no evil.  Sorry about the rant.  I could go on but I’ll stop right there. Before someone thinks I’m some kind of loon.

They also want to band soda pop and New York wants to band restaurants from having salt in food. I saw on the news the other day they were thinking about banding swing sets at playgrounds , because of the potential dangers.  FUCKin A where do we draw the line.  You wanna hear a potential danger on a playground. A hole in the ground that's a potential danger.  Poor kid can break an ankle playing Red Rover or Duck Duck Goose. Another potential danger on a play ground trash, broken bottles, crushed aluminum cans.  Let your imagination run wild with what could happen. Oh and another potential danger at a playground flowers that attract bees and other insects.  


(ANOTHER SIDE STORY I NEVER TOLD ANY ONE)


You wanna know another potential danger on the playground THE SUN.  When I was in 2nd grade, living in ALABAMA, during playtime I was swing around on the monkey bars.  I am a true blooded monkey at heart ask anyone that knows me.  Anyways when I got done playing on the monkey bars the whole palms of my hands were blistered from the friction of swinging and the heat of the SUN on the bars, and I'm talking about one big oozing blister over each palm of my hand.  I had art class next.  I didn't want them popping and oozing all over my doodles. So wanna know what I did?  I ripped off the 1/8  of a inch blisters exposing my fresh raw skin underneath.  I didn't cry.  It didn't even hurt. It was sensitive to the touch.  Nobody found out until I got home.  


Whats even funnier as no matter how much damage I do to my hands cuts, burns, etc,  they always remain BABY BUTT smooth & soft.  =P


(OK BACK TA RANT)

Other states have their own stupid laws.  Live Free or Die.  My ass!!!!!  Did you know in parts of the US you can’t order over easy eggs because of the bacteria content.  But McDonalds will give you a free Shriek glass with toxic paint.  Taco bell will serve meat and food knowing theirs cow/rat shit in it.  You can go by any Wal-Mart kids section and most of the toys are poison.  You can’t smoke in a bar/strip club because it's indecent and toxic, but you don’t have to wash your hands after whipping yourself “common decency" trust me I know.  Would you like to know the guy shoving dollar bills down your G-string just got back from grabbing his junk or wiping his ass and didn’t wash his hands?  We have lost our moral values from some television / some music/ lack of parenting/ and not implementing the basics of a goodhearted tribal community. 

What about the smuggling of heroin from Vietnam and pumping the ghettos full of the shit along with crack. Just to pay off warlords to move through territories. In a war we should have never been in.  What about the use of LSD as a truth serum that never worked doping our own GIs and high political figures for the fuck of it.  Guantanamo Bay?  The list goes on Darlin' and I'll be waiting for our debate after you cook your little one dinner.

It’s amazing, I’m the reason

Everybody fired up this evening

I’m exhausted, barely breathing

Holding on to what I believe in

No matter what you’ll never take that freedom from me

My reign is as far as your eyes can see

We are in America and we are Americans and this is what freedoms all about. As much as I hate our politics I love our Freedoms or our misconceptions of being free. It could be a lot worse.

We all could be hiding in bunkers waiting for a nuclear winter to snow down on our forgotten souls.

Seattle where everyone is educated and progressive!?!..What’s that suppose ta mean your shit smells like roses. LOL the fact you said that makes it uneducated and unprogressive.  Not trying to pick on ya Darlin’,but I've moved all over the US and everywhere you go you find intellectuals and retards.  And sometimes the retards are more intellectual then the educated. And the educated most often lack social niceties with their egos. And the retards are sometimes the most humble people you may ever meet. I’ll rather gain a friend over lavished graces then deconstructive narcissism.

On second thought I might eat it, your deconstructive narcissism that is.  You can separate the brain from the body and the mind will survive.  Although we can fake sensations in the brain we cannot fake interpretations.

Just A lil KnowLedge From Other Wiser Men And A RanT FrOm MEz


"I have been studying the traits and dispositions of the "lower animals"(so-called), and contrasting them with the traits and dispositions of man.  I find the result humiliating to me.  For it obliges me to renounce my allegiance to the Darwinian theory of the Ascent of Man  from the Lower Animals; since it now seems plain to me that the theory ought to be vacated in favor of a new and truer one, this new and truer one to be named the Descent of Man from the higher Animals. ~Mark Twain

Crystallized Intelligence- our accumulated knowledge & verbal skillz; tends to increase with age.  =)

Fluid Intelligence- our ability to reason speedily & abstractly; tends to decrease during late adulthood.  =P

I don't try to describe the future. I try to prevent it.”  ~ Ray Bradbury
   
“The unleashed power of the atom has changed everything save our modes of thinking and we thus drift toward unparalleled catastrophe.”~Albert Einstein 

“I think computer viruses should count as life. I think it says something about human nature that the only form of life we have created so far is purely destructive. We've created life in our own image.”~Steven Hawking

 This is a Rant I had on FB with a very good buddy of mine about Nuclear POWER..=P

           Your right Mac phytoplankton makes up most of the oxygen we breathe about 80-85%. The trees help as a fiberized filter. While the earth spins tress catch all the smoke toxins and such from the air. Trees also allow shifts in the currents of weather patterns along with providing homes for land critters and birds.    And as of now to help global warming the government is on this all out clean nuclear power binge filled with half-truths and fuckin’ dirty lies.
I just had this discussion in my English class and pissed everyone off.  Nuclear power plants produce no CO2 no greenhouse gas “good for the environment”, but the toxic waste is vile and will take about 100 thousand years to dissipate. Out of one uranium rod, that we piss water off its head to turn those generators turbines that create power, we use up 15% of it before its no good, and then we toss it away in a lead filled water bath drum. We have nowhere to put it not Yucca anymore. Obama canceled the funding on a 25 year project that coast us trillions.  Not only that Nuclear power produces only about 20% of the electricity we use in the US, and in the US we waste  about 20% of our electricity.  NOW THAT IS A CATCH 22!!!!   Or a Catch 20/20. LOL
Well Obama's politics is from Illinois the biggest Nuclear State in the US and they did help pay for his campaign.  Beside the fact everyone thinks Nuclear is so clean they forget we are starting to produce coal power plants with next to nil emissions and coal we can renew and remake.  Coal is just carbon, like almost every other living thing on earth.  Sorry to say but think of Soylet Green.  Life is a battery, plain and simple. You can neither create nor destroy energy it just changes course.  We use old dinosaur fossils that have turned to oil underground over time. 
Anyways hears my major fear HUMAN ERROR. They say it’s safe we have warnings and this and that.  They also said offshore drilling was safe and looked what the fuck happened.  You can never predict the stupidity of others, computers as well Computers are man made therefore they have flaws, small discrepancies. A kid in my class that was in the Navy argued with this subject during my nuclear presentation.  He had no facts.

He says,“I was on a nuclear sub and nothing bad happened to me.” 

I told him" Yeah I also read your paper and you said sometimes the soldiers would forget to change the lint traps to the driers while doing laundry.  That in turn catching a cargo hold or what not on fire and you all would have to jump ship until the problem was dealt with. This happens regularly on a NUCLEAR SUB!!!!  Military Intelligence my ASS!!!!!"  

Poor kids can’t do their laundry without starting fires on Nuclear Subs.  Now think of it this way a Nuclear Sub explodes in the ocean because some retard couldn’t figure out how to change dust bunnies out from lint trap. Then the nuclear waste from the sub seeps deep down in the ocean, flows through a tidal current, contaminating all kinds of life kills the phytoplankton and the whole human race dies over lack of oxygen. I know it over dramatizing it but still.  I bet you wouldn’t find that on the news. 
Hopefully before that all happens again "knock on wood" most people would become a Semi automotromic synthetic celestial conciseness of beings. LOL If you get what I’m getting at.;) I knew you said you worked in the Navy as an Aviation Electronics Technician so you can see/ and have seen the many flaws in their systematic s. I was never trying to put you down personally.  Too much technology or I should say those who depend on too much technology with little knowledge have no clue of what it means to be SIMPLISTIC in true raw ANIMAL form. Well that’s enough on my rant.  Sorry about my grammatical flaws, I’m only human, as long as the ideas were expressed I’m happy. =)

"In a modern dictatorship, however, with its subterranean ubiquity and all-embracing instruments of oppression, a revolt means certain death too all who support it.  To reproach in modern tyranny a people as a whole for failing to revolt is as if one would reproach a prisoner for failing to escape from a heavily guarded prison."  ~ Dietrich Bonhoeffer


SaluTaTions =)

       
  "Hello!" , "How do you do?" , "Good morning!?!" , or a simple smile and a nod of a hat are a few of the kindlier greetings that we use in our everyday life that in a world full of cruelty and strangers has started to lose its value.  A friendly greeting has become more of a chore than a simple expression of one’s acknowledgment of another person’s existence in humanity.  We tend to say hello out of routine then genuine care of how someone actually is doing, feeling, or being.  In a simple tone of a greeting you can create a friend for life or a bitter nemesis, become somebodies confidant or bodyguard, make a person feel like they belong or outkasted, disarm a hostile situation or fuel one.  Behind a greeting one holds a power of responsibility for the person they greeted into their realm of life and vice versa.  What you do after a hello, either for good or ill intent is a true test of one’s character and respect towards another human being.          

          I’m the kind of person that has never met a stranger, at least no one stranger than myself.  As much as I would hate to admit it, this is a blessing and a curse rolled up in a paradoxical cocoon of preposterous occurrences in my life.   Never before has this epiphany ever become more so well manifested in events until now and forever.

HeRe Is A lil RaP of MiNez

Here’s another form of verbal rape hope you all can appreciate.Not all these little ditties fit together I know that I don't want you ta steal all my silly songs. =P
  

My lil brother is always on guard, a sentinel android thug sent from an intergalactic space station in some far off cosmos. Where I was the opposite, a psychopathic disco gummy bear guided from a land of rainbows, gingersnaps, and marshmallow fluff.


Was a fish eating smaller fishes grew bigger. Now I’m eating big fish for dinner. Throwing another shrimp on the barb to place on my dish. Damn I love living to defeat the best and the biggest. Dragging AHAB da Arab down in the water putting up my fight. Jaws anit got shit because I have the sharper bite.


I’ve become an earphone junkie a disco fiend. Server the connections, decapitate machines. When the sparks start fling and oil blood streams. I blast out my lazers and shoot with my beams. Tazein’ all the assholes who disrupts my whole screen. I will be your master crunch wrap supreme. LMAO all original started this morning waiting at the bus stop in the fog.

If you’re a thug then I'm the Cat in the Hat break your dome with my aluminum bat.  Your flow is so bubbly like packaging wrap.  I'll squat on your chest and then take a fat crap.  Roll you in syrup and feed  to ants. Lite you on fire and do a rain dance.  Call on my dawgs and then we will feast.  Mother Fucker we’re beasts.  The moons getting full so be ware or I’ll tell ya where ta be.  Next I’ll be spittin' my flavor on MTV.  Well not so much anymore if ya get what I mean.  I’ll start an up roar and take down the machine.  So you like to smoke green I head from a birdie that you like to suck dick. Boy your mouth is so pretty.

Who are you Nelly sportin’ your air- force ones?  You a little too young to remember KRS"WON".  I'm a nuclear baby. I've lived through Chernobyl and spread radiation filth through Constantinople.  Do you know where that is? flip out an atlas.  Because boy you’re gonna need your face stitched once I get what I’m after. I can rap lotto rhymes.  I got a whole doll house filled with 50 cent dimes.  You know you want it.  You can’t get what I have.  So go back home and cry to your dad.  I've heard your story over and over can’t you see me yawnin’.  I’ll take your mother out to dinner and watch her head bobbin.  Under the table that's where she be.  Don’t give up so damn easily.  What are you a ghost face killa’.  Stay chompin’ Pac Man I’m the Magilla Gorilla.  I’m a street shark can’t you see my razor sharp teeth.  I eat tender vittles and fresh raw meat.   I have plenty of riddles and hardcore beats. So kiddo I know it’s hard to admit. Struttin around in that outfit that your grandmother knit.   Rocking you to sleep in your air-force “Zeros” you have to come ta terms I’m your number one hero. So put down your gun and join the right side.  There’s a whole lot ta tapioca puddin' in your dirty brown eye.  You act so hood you act so thug but all you need is a gummy bears hug.