My CHRISTmas Prayer

This Christmas I don't want anything but PEACE, LOVE, and GOD's Good WILL TOWARDS MAN.

GOD you know I'm never picky anyways when it comes to CHRISTmas.  Growing up dirt poor, I'm just happy to have family to enjoy this season with.

Tomorrow I'm donating a bunch of clothes to the SALVATION ARMY, in hopes of keeping a family or two or three warm this season.

I hope somehow all the things that have been happening settle down and gain some kind of retrospective towards others.

I pray that the GROUP I'm trying to help raise money to go to AFRICA, makes the QUOTA we need and we get to bring JOY to all those lil ORPHAN kiddos.  I cant wait to bring them smiles and toys.

I PRAY to lil BABY JESUS and thank you GOD and him for his BIRTH and LOVE towards all of man kind.

I know people have forgotten what CHRISTmas is all about.  Its not about presents, toys, material possessions and who gets the best one.

CHRISTmas is about the BIRTH of JESUS and all that he has done for us.  GOD there is TRULY nothing you can't do.  NOTHING is IMPOSSIBLE with your help & wisdom.

I wanna say thanks for all that you have done.

I know I have been saying that a lot lately, but its the TRUTH.  I see everything on a much smaller grander scale now and to tell you the truth I'm a MAZED.  When chopping wood,  I notice all the threads and fibers of that kind wood, the smell, the texture,  the way it burns and produces heat.  When I pour a glass of WATER I can see the bubbles and the flow of the water swirl around the glass and see the MAGNIFICENCE in it. I see the simple yet extraordinary patterns that hold the WORLD together.  The way the wind blows the snow or the way the sun melts the snow,  I see the bonds that are held not only physically but mentally and emotionally.

I have lost a good large group of friends because of the TRUTH I speak now, and I'm glad a few of them that I have left know me and TRUST me and the few that think I'm crazy still keep me around because they know my TRUE character, even though they might not believe completely in you our GOD.  You know who they all are.  PLEASE Bless them.

I know I shouldn't have gotten upset with my mother earlier on tonight, I know its not completely her fault.  I was just hurt by her not believing me still.  Every time I try to tell her what happened during the day she tries to argue it and say, "Its just a coincidence."  How many coincidences does a person need before they can just say, "Well something is happening that follows a pattern that defies logic or scientific explanation?"

She is a good person, a strong person, a loving person and I hope see starts to see the TRUTH as I know IT TO BE.

I pray everyone around the WORLD is with their LOVED ones tonight.  I hope they tell their LOVED ones they LOVE them, weather it be their children, significant other, or their neighbor and/or stranger. If not tonight tell them TOMORROW DURING CHRISTmas.

I pray JEZRA and her family are having a good time and enjoying each others company.  I would have LOVED to have been with her and her folks this season, and cook them a great CHRISTmas dinner.  You know I'm a great cook when it comes to that stuff.  I probably should not have over reacted when the DEVIL shocked me, but I couldn't help it.  I thought I was going to die and I needed to tell her how I felt before that happened.  NOW SHE THINKS I'M CRAZY LIKE THE REST OF HER GROUP OF FRIENDS. Anyways Bless her, her family, and her friends.

You know its funny.  When I was up to my evil ways and doing all the things I was doing, everybody thought I was sane and fine although I was hurting inside.  They always loved me or acted like they did.  When I stopped my evil ways a good majority of them stopped hanging out with me because they couldn't get anything they wanted from me anymore.  They couldn't get anything period.  And now half of the people that  stayed my friends think I'm insane, well I don't TRUELY know what they think. Anyways bless all them despite their ways. Everyone falls from GRACE sometimes. Its HARD being human and decent in this WORLD we live in today.

Well beside all of that I want to say thanks for giving us your SUN.  Thanks for letting him bear the CROSS like he did.  That must have been really hard for you.  It would for me.  I wouldN'T know what I would do if my SUN had to bear such a thing.  I would probably  have KILLED anyone and everyone who would sacrifice my SUN in such a way as JESUS was sacrificed.  But thats me.

Obviously you have much more patience and wisdom then me. THANK GOD. lol =) ;)
I LOVE YOU GOD, JESUS, AND EVERYONE.

HAVE YOURSELVES A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

GOD BLESS!!!
AMEN!!!!!

Pure Imagination

Jesus of Nazareth - HED (PE)

NAS - Heaven

My MOTHER thinks I'm InSANE

I keep having this reoccurring argument with my MOTHER whom I LOVE dearly.  She thinks I'm getting too in depth with this ANGEL stuff.  She thinks that one person out of the WHOLE WORLD is messing with ME on the internet trying to drive me insane.  She thinks all these random occurrences in the past two months are all coincidences.  THEY MEAN NOTHING.

 I try to reason with her but she refuses to believe me. I think its because shes AFRAID to see the TRUTH.

I tell her"HOW can this ONE person shock me through a post I made on FB, and not only that how could people from all over the WORLD whom I never met in person know that I got shocked at that moment and ask if I was OK?  How can this ONE person know I was going back to CHURCH, and KNOW the exact date?  HOW can this one person control the MOON, STARS, and WEATHER?  How can this ONE person know when I'm on TWITTER and play CHESS with me when I call him out, and not only that place people as my friends/followers on twitter that have been dead and then erase them from all of online existence?  WHY would this ONE person deposit over $4000 into my buddies bank account after my second time of going to CHURCH with him?  HOW can this ONE person even place people in my life that known me way before I even started going back to CHURCH? HOW can this ONE person control my DREAMs, and control my hearing to the point I can hear a choir in my head? HOW can this one person control so much of my life sense BIRTH and everything around it?"

MOTHER:"Your not listening to me.  We need to do some investigating.  There has to be some kind of SCIENTIFIC EXPLANATION!?!"

ME: "I'm listening but what you say makes no sense.  WHAT you say I find hard to believe. YOU GET ME THE SCIENTIFIC DATA AND I'LL MIGHT START BELIEVING YOU.  I didn't just wake up one day and say to myself I'm gonna make up this whole elaborate story of the DEVIL and me. I'm gonna make most all my friends and LOVE ed ONES think I'm CRAZY. I'm going to make everyone in the WORLD think I'm crazy. That sounds fun."

MOTHER: "WELL THATS JUST SILLY."

ME:"SO YOU THINK I"M A LIAR?!?"

MOTHER:"NO. I THINK YOUR READING TOO DEEP INTO ALL OF THIS.  THERE IS NOTHING WRONG  WITH BELIEVING IN GOD.  ITS WHEN YOU START THINKING YOUR SOME KIND OF MESSIAH YOUR NUTS."

ME: "I NEVER SAID I WAS A MESSIAH.  JESUS IS THE MESSIAH.  I'M JUST TELLING YOU WHAT HAS BEEN HAPPENING TO ME.  ITS CHRISTMAS EVE.  I HAVE HAD A GOOD DAY POSTING CHRISTMAS POST, I"M NOT GOING TO HAVE THIS ARGUMENT WITH YOU.  IT MAKES ME SAD."

MOM:"THEN SMILE or I'LL TICKLE YOU. =)"

ME:"TRY ALL YOU WANT I AM NUMB NOW.  MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!"

P.S. Not only that I have witnesses.  So now this one person controls them as well. WHAT A LOAD OF B.S.

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